NOW IS THE TIME TO BUILD
A STRONGER SPIRITUAL FOUNDATION
To do this, we need more energy focussed to our awakening.
Let us explore the process of building consciousness.
Spiritual Awareness
acknowledges both light and shadow. We embrace the Light,
exploring its generous, abundant nature that nurtures and opens our Vision and potential. The other side is the shadow, delving us into the dark, hidden aspects of the Soul. The relationship between these light and dark parts exist simultaneously, providing depth and lightness. We recognize the need to build a bridge to higher consciousness, allowing this play of light and dark to add fuel to our growth process and move us beyond our old perceptions. Hidden aggressions, our dark demons, test our faith and the strength of our light body. With careful guidance, our goal is to end the separation of the light and dark in ourselves, becoming the masters of our conditions rather than the victim of the negativity which we carry inside.
Our awareness of light was very strong when we were children. We developed relationships in our innocent imagination which created bubbles of light to play within and served to hide us from the pain of the outside world. These bubbles allowed us to escape. In our best intention to keep the light pure and protected, we did not allow it to touch the earth or the dark contaminated parts of ourselves. We held this light in the child mind, which did not allow it to develop beyond a certain point. These bubbles of light protected us from the world, creating a fantasy space, an escape from darkness. This split our world into either all dark or all light. We lost trust in the self, because on some level we felt the light of our fantasies was not strong enough to penetrate these dark places. Darkness took over because the light was not allowed, not because it did not exist.
As this happened, our consciousness began to fear the darkness even more, trapping us with inner demons that became more real than the light-giving aspects of ourselves or others. Caught in tunnel vision, focussing on staying in control, we avoid deeper awareness, fearing what lies under the darkness. This ego trance, hypnotized by our old dramas, convinces us that it is hopeless to change, reinforcing deep feelings of abandonment. In trance, we are deeply confused with the light, which makes us want to run away even more. Creating this little heaven and hell in the child mind has kept us stuck, unable to function beyond the myth we have created.
In this split, the dark psyche becomes the storeroom of demons where we hide old family wounds, hurts and resentments that we have no power to integrate. As we open our faith to a deeper experience of light and go beyond our child self, we experience the empowered light that has no fear or need to hide. This light takes us beyond ourselves and into a greater Vision, of both the purpose of suffering and the miracle of light itself. The mature healing power of light opens us, allowing the presence of the Higher Self to change the storeroom of pain into a creative playhouse, transforming the darkness into wisdom and depth. This healing provides a spiritual foundation of truth and empowerment, with richness and resources that go beyond the old fears. Our biggest work now is to allow the light of the Higher Self to be present in all situations.
My experience is that we are gravitating between the power of the new foundation, based on truth and empowerment through love, and the old patterns of protection, which encourage us to hide and pretend. Each day we explore the subtle ways that we hold back by holding on to old situations that keep the protective personality in place, vibrating on the platform of fear. Reminded to go beyond the need to be right, or prove our old existence, we are encouraged to move into the spaciousness of love and giving. We are being directed to tear down the walls of the protective child ego and build a new Vision.
The goal is to reach a new level of harmony, a tangible vibration that holds the truth and joy of Being in every moment. To open deeper to this healing process, we must willingly acknowledge and bless every aspect of life. We must root out all the unconscious aspects of fear, anger and resentment. This power of the new foundation works like a bulldozer on the old conditioning. It clears the fog, banishes the unconscious rambling of the victim, and takes us out of hiding. This new foundation allows us to express beyond words, bring true blessings from the heart, and give spontaneously the strength of love and clarity to all situations. We have to ask our Higher Self for support to build the foundation, both in ourselves and in community. Our own personal commitment allows the work to begin.
In these times, long and drawn out processing becomes a struggle that is difficult to tolerate. Transformation is essential, for it releases the resentment and fear trapped in the personality. The old and familiar patterns want to keep duplicating themselves; same stories, different movie. When embracing the limitations of fixed attitudes, our need for safety within the old complexes causes us to bypass the freeway to new adventure. New roads have to be created, just as new seeds planted in the garden are necessary if we want more than weeds to grow. We have to raise the vibration of our space and join with the Higher Self, the blueprint of our divinity. The personality canšt make it on its own, that is not the goal. The goal is to join, to co-create, to pray. We ask to become pregnant with the Divine, allowing the letting go process, and birthing the Sacred Self.
Giving up Resentment
Most of our hurt is held in resentment. This creates a personality that is difficult to be with because the hurting is so severe. Resentment is the voice of the victim. It speaks loudly of where we have been denied. Stripped of our dignity, we are left with a feeling of emptiness. We get lost in the hurt and the helplessness. This is so painful that we cover it with anger, bitterness, and self-righteousness. There is no vision or answer, because the personality behind it is empty and incapable of receiving. This closes down our joy and we forget how to play and be spontaneous. The resentment floats us on the surface of the wound, but does not allow us to move beyond the dark and the injured.
We wanted so desperately to be free of the pain, blaming others when they couldnšt save us. We feared drowning in those dark empty spaces. Resentment was the egošs way of making protective walls against our vulnerability. As we become tired of the prison resentment keeps us in, we ask the Higher Self what is needed to really free us. We must look beyond the anger and self righteousness of the story and find out what must be accepted in order to embrace love. We learn to accept the voice of denial and clear the pattern around it. Then we commit to giving life to that empty part of ourselves. As we give up the blame, the healing begins.
The process of forgiveness starts by bringing compassion and gentleness to the hurting one inside. Without connecting to the Higher Self first, our stories and stuck places fester. By directing love and understanding to each situation, we allow healing love into the bleeding emptiness. This connection breaks the fear behind these bubbles of light, moving us beyond the child mind, to a deeper connection with the Higher Self. Our willingness to love through the darkness gives us the ability to see with higher Vision and clear the way for new relationships. Forgiveness brings purification, the joy of life and the light of Creation.
All life is precious, and every part of us serves the greater whole. It just depends on what level we choose to operate. We are learning to let go and allow a greater consciousness to be expressed through us. This is the challenge to all of us moment to moment. What is the quality of our mind and our hearts? How can we gracefully take the next step in our awakening process? It is not to judge ourselves. This only victimizes us in the old ways of control. Look to the next level with respect rather than comparison. In this way, we count the blessings of even the most difficult moments. They show us parts of ourselves which are caught in the fear, and can be utilized in the next level of transformation.With kindness toward our process, we feel the blessings of the moment, and each step of remembering gives strength to the foundation we are building. Through our willingness to give and receive and to participate in releasing the old pain, we accept the blessing and the miracle of our life unfolding.
You may contact Nancy by E-mail at nsrubin@aloha.net